Sep 25 2013

The Pain of Pain

i-got-your-backI’ve been out of a job since May of this year, and without medical insurance since August. And because one of the medical issues I’m dealing with is chronic back pain, I’m on daily medication to help with that. Being without insurance coverage means I get to pay cash for these meds. Lucky me.

Actually, what it means is that I’ve had to take a long, hard look at the meds and their cost, and then decide what I really need, what I can afford, and what I’ll do without for the time being.

Some of this pain could be helped with minor surgical procedures every several months, but that’s expensive WITH insurance. It’s prohibitively expensive right now, so it’s not really an option. Read the rest of this entry »

Sep 24 2013

10 years, and counting

Ten years of fatherhood. Who’d have thought the time would go so quickly?

Bacon turned 10 last Sunday. Due to our difficult financial circumstances this year, we weren’t able to go totally crazy over the day this year, but I think it was a fairly memorable years’ celebration.

251248250About two months ago, we bought a used drumset from an artist in Ventura, and I had him convinced that I had gotten it for a friend of ours who is also a musician. I’ve spent the time between then and now hiding the pieces, stripping them down, and refinishing them. I also had to replace or add little pieces and bits, and managed to get everything done just in time for the big day.  Read the rest of this entry »

Sep 04 2013

The Dog.

I haven’t been writing enough to really talk about a lot of life changes going on at the Casa de Fear in the last year. Which sucks, really, on many levels. But I digress. In so many ways.

fr_49_size1024Back in mid-December, the wife finally assented to us boys and gave me the go-ahead to look for a family dog. I knew I wanted a German Shepherd, and especially an all-black or all-white one, if it were possible. Don’t laugh; I see them on Craig’s List from time to time.

However, that particular week there were only two German Shepherds in my semi-immediate area that were looking for new homes. I called on both immediately, but only one person got back to me. Apparently he’d had the ad up about a week or so and had a few people interested, but as I always note when dealing on Craig’s List, the flake ratio is unusually high. Such was the case for this dog and his owners.

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Sep 02 2013

Guardian Angels and other myths that are true

I have a confession. I’ve always believed in guardian angels. It probably comes from my mom, who believes in the essential good in the world. Not that all PEOPLE are inherently good–she’s not that naive–but that there is enough good to be found in the world that it makes the short trip we take on this planet worthwhile.

As a Christian, I believe that God has heavenly beings that he packages up in flesh, and sends them down for a specific purpose. I have a friend who was finishing a long day hike, got back to the parking lot late in the evening, and twisted her ankle on the opposite side of the lot from her truck. She tried to hobble on her own, but simply couldn’t. As she tells the story, there were essentially no other vehicles there at that time of day, and was thinking she’d be stuck there until morning when SOMEone showed up. Out of nowhere–no footsteps, no jingling of keys–just a large black man appearing at her side asking her what was wrong. She was initially scared for her safety, not knowing where he came from or what his intentions were, so she tried to say she was OK and just resting. He told her he was there to help, and carried her to her truck like she weighed nothing. At the truck, he made some reference to something going on in her life that no one else knew about — I forget what — and gave her his card. She got settled behind the wheel, went to thank him, and he was gone. No trace of anyone in this large parking lot, where there were no plants or anything to hide behind. And when she looked at the card he gave her, it only had a triangle on it, which could be interpreted as the Christian symbol of the Trinity: Father (God), Son (Jesus), and the Holy Ghost. She couldn’t find the card the next morning, and would dismiss it as a dream or something, except for the fact that her ankle WAS badly sprained. Guardian Angel? Sounds like it to me.

However, I think much more common is God’s use of other people for this task. And I have one that I didn’t expect, and what he’s doing I don’t deserve. Read the rest of this entry »

Sep 01 2013

Heading for the Bottom

Earlier this month, I had a defining night. We’ve been trudging toward some major changes for our family, and had THE DAY when the proverbial shit hit the fan. And, as you can imagine, I’d been one massive ball of stress over it. I’d been doing all I could to make this change easier (or get past it altogether) and nothing I’d done made any headway whatsoever.

I’ve hated the place I’ve gotten my life into, and everything around me has just made things more obvious to me that things suck. It seems I’m the only one who sees them, but that’s all it takes to make my mood worse. Needless to say, I’ve been a joy to be around lately. Read the rest of this entry »

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